Monday, November 28, 2005
Enthusiasm at the brim of overflowing
Hellllooooo there! Heh, I have a fair conscience to say that my jolliness is B-A-C-K.
Yea, baby!! ;)
Posted by Berenice at 4:45 PM
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Thursday, November 24, 2005
Desperation
These couple of weeks have been a time of distress to us all at the hall. Reason is simple: Desperation.*Desperation is when you begin to think you are the world's biggest donkey whenever you look at the clock and it's always a few more minutes nearer to deadline.
*Desperation is when you attempt the impossible. Sleeping with your texts as pillow, hoping the facts will be absorbed in via surface to surface transfer.
*Desperation is when you think everyone's your enemy, trying to defeat you.
*Desperation is when you realise you need to stock up on chocolates and sweets every other day and you still feel deprived.
*Desperation is when you wake up screaming because in your dream the figures for algebra wouldn't equate.
*Desperation is when your brain starts shutting down and you start panicking at the sight of invigilators.
*Desperation is when everyone posts a war-cry at their MSN nick.
*Desperation is when you wished you live in the world of Matrix where info can be loaded directly into your brain.
*Desperation is when everyone walks around with bloodshot eyes and tells you that they are gonna continue to study.
*Desperation is when you think purple food looks deliciously yummy.
*Desperation is when you stare at the sun and think that's it's nighttime and the moon is awfully bright today.
*Desperation is when everyone group chats and spam their friends with nonsensical emoticons and alphabets.
!!3 cheers for Desperation!!
Posted by Berenice at 1:00 AM
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
The Keys to My Heart *blush*
Prodded,I thought i'll just give this a go. Do i really buy this? I don't know. Maybe there is a teensy bit of sceptism. Hehe..but what the heck.| The Keys to Your Heart |
 In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Warm fuzzy feeling..
Lately I've been feeling really crappy for some reason. Maybe it's due to stress caused by the finals plus some crazy hormonal imbalance. I'd blame that on the weather. Hehe..It's been a total rollercoaster ride for me. I could be at the peak at the start of the day, reach a low dip around afternoon, and maybe just stuck there by night time.
There are days I feel completely stupid that i even banged myself on the door. Why? I tried to open a locked door while going in at the same time. End result = I banged myself on the door.
Then there are days I ramble on like an idiot, talking nonsense and incoherently.
Seriously, if a truck might run me over, i might end up laughing coz i'm too numb to feel the pain, maybe it'll just be a tickle to me.
For a fair-weathered person (i personally think so), crap like this do not happen often.
But thank god, I've been blessed with Guardian Angels. They came at the right time too, just before i thought I'd have a few pills and a couple swigs of hard liquor. OK, not that drastic.
Nonetheless, like i said,I'm blessed to be with such people around. Kind and comforting words have found their way to me. And I cannot thank them more. Obviously, their efforts have touched me and i really appreciate them. When you are hundreds of miles away from home, you realise that people around you meant a lot to you, especially during times like these.
To who-who, you know who you are, this post is a little bit late, i admit, but thanks all the same. I have that card pinned up so I'd look at it whenever i feel down and that really cheers me up. To others, thank you as well. *thumbs up*
Hehe..oh yeah..i'm going home soon!! Woohooo!!
Posted by Berenice at 11:09 AM
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What kind of candy am i?
Wowie..of course I'm kungFuCandy *HAIII-YAAaH*..But then sadly this kind of candy does not exist in candyworld. So i thought i'd see how i'd fare in the real-deal candyworld. It's a dog eat dog world there, ya'know.| Snickers |
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Try it once and you'll never regret it. The quiz, of course, what were you thinkin'?
Posted by Berenice at 10:57 AM
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New Aspiration! YEaHHHHH!
Ok, after neglecting this blog here for so long, I've made the life-changing decision of taking it up and making this page here as my HQ for future activities.
I swore to myself that I will make this happen and, indeed, I will.
5 minutes later..~
Posted by Berenice at 1:32 AM
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Monday, November 21, 2005
^bath time^
Do you realise that you spend at least half an hour to one hour everyday in the bathroom?No, this is not an infomercial and i have not been paid to promote anything.It's just a thought.
Especially since i realised the amount of time and the quality of the acitivities we do in there really are vital to the well-being of all responsible, law-abiding, god-fearing citizens. One cannot imagine the amount of well-planned jokes have been hatched while sitting on the royal throne, waiting for the nukes to fly. I do admit it's a love-hate relationship. It can also be an assault to the senses on certain days, especially when you are really unlucky.
Hehe..Living in a hall, well, gave me the golden opportunity to experience common bathrooms. If you were thinking along the lines of having girls clad only in underwear walking around, brushing their teeth, or in bath towels alone, then *poof*. Dream shattered. Yes, get real, guys, it's nothing like this.Since i am not allowed into the guys bathroom, I wouldn't know what happens there. So sorry, girls, I know nuts and is just as blur as you are.
Have you ever had the chance of walking into an enclosed place and find yourself in a near fainting state bacause you find it hard to breathe? Well, i have. Personally, i have nothing against people with body odour. But i do have a thing when they do not do something about it and seek to suffocate me in close proximity. This is very personal. And since it's a free country, every single person has the freedom to choose to stink or not to stink. But i beg you to spare me of that. I be nice to you, so you be nice to me. WE BE FRIENDS, YA?
I've also come across some really eccentric people with their eccentricities. I've seen people washing their face at the sink but never bend down once. They just stand there, stick straight and start splashing water over the face and all over the place. The water doesn't go down the sink but the counter. And she thinks her face can be clean when she's flooded the entire counter and the floor with the water meant for her face. Amazing.
Oh hey how about those who makes a total mess out of the toilet? You'll see a very nice looking girl going into the toilet. 5 minutes later, she comes out and left. You realise the cubicle looked as if a Hurricane Dung had hit it. There's paper bits everywhere and disgusting muck there too. Yuck. Looks can be deceiving, no?
The worse thing is to suffer in silence. I cannot tell how many times this had happened. I walk into a cubicle, sat down and realised i was in the wrong cubicle! Yea, sure i am in the ladies BUT the cubicle next to me is about to Hiroshima-ed. OOOOHHHH...the stench..And you'd be so helpless because, obviously, one cannot tell the person off for producing such smelly shit. I mean, who is to know, rite? If i have the power and the foresight, I would promise to be so kind as to inform everyone beforehand to not come into the toilet for a few minutes. Then, they'll be spared disgusting thoughts and wrinkly noses. If only..
Posted by Berenice at 2:42 AM
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Saturday, November 19, 2005
punk'd
What a day! It started out really boring. The agenda for the day was to wake up, have breakfast and head off to the library to mug. The aim was obviously to mug until i conked out, of course. I do understand that this idea is a little bit to drastic and desperate. However, the finals are here as justification.
Soo....everyone meekly settled down and started to busy themselves with the many, many pages of theories and formulaes. A few hours later, stomach growling, me and a friend headed off to lunch first while the others stayed behind as they weren't hungry yet.
Mmmm...we had japanese food today for lunch. Really yummy, especially when in the company of funny and wacky people. It was a long lunch, and for that i've totally forgotten about my laptop, which was with my friends back at the library for safe-keeping. As I was laughing, I looked up and to my surprise, i saw my friends at the food court minus my laptop. OOHH!!!! My heart nearly stopped beating. My mouth went dry. I started sweating. It didn't help that one of my friend started gesturing and mouthing "Gone already" to me when they saw me. As fast as i could i went over to them. Turned out that they just left it there.
Oh my gawd! I cannot believe what they did. Offi go, rushing back to the library. I clambered up the stairs and ran to my seat. Indeed, my laptop was gone. G-O-N-E!!! Can you imagine losing your laptop? Dammit, i can't. Not at all since i have so much stuff there and i'm having my exams. There was a note on the table though. It said "Laptop missing? Call us!"
So off i went and make that all important phone call. It turned out to be with one of the girls there and she was from our hall. So i went over, got it back and settled down. Calming down and breathing getting easier.
*Phew~~* Can't believe these people.
But then again, i can't help but laugh through out the remainder of the day.
Hehe
Posted by Berenice at 4:18 AM
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
Have some fun...
Recently I have started a habit and a good one too. That is...studying at the block lounge.
For all that have no idea what iz zee louhnge, iz zee plaz where everyOne can go tzoo, iz haz air-con, a televission zet and, of Cohze, couchez foh yew to zit on.
And it is in such place where the study environment becomes conducive. Oh yeah, it is also conducive for another thing to, especially during hot days, Snoozing. I must admit that I am guilty of snoozing there too. Not too many times but more than once. Nonetheless, I wish to clarify that my somnolent state has nothing to do with laziness. It has, however, everything to do with pressure, tired eyes and late nights.
Ahh but who would have thought that dead serious study sessions could turned out to be such fun. *Evil chuckle*
The story starts here:
It all happened on one fateful evening. Everyone was drowsy with facts and formulaes. It was very, very quiet in the lounge, only the hum of the air-con unit was audible. Otherwise, it was perfect silence from everyone.
In my humble opinion, it was probably at that point where everyone were toying with the idea of a short nap. It was a flawless setting for one even if you would like to disagree. Unfortunately, this was not meant to last.
The silence was broken with a small Zzzzzz. Immediately, everyone looked from their books and started to look around. Turned out that one guy had fallen asleep, in a most cosy manner, occupying a whole couch by himself. His mouth was open and that was the reason the sound was produced.
"Zzz..Zzzzzz..ZZZzzz"
It became louder.
Everyone in the lounge was giggling and covering their mouths, trying to stifle a huge laugh. You could see fleeting expressions of seriousness as everyone tried to concentrate on what they were doing while chuckling away. We waited for the snores to stop but that did not happen.
My friend, however, had the idea of recording this particular scene and he snuck out quietly to get his viewcam. Moments later, the deep slumber and the loud snores were caught on tape [memory, in modern terms] He also poked the snorer on his ribs but, alas, he continued to sleep. There was not even a twitch or any other reaction.
Another fella was even worse. Ya you know who you are. Hahaha...He had the brilliant idea of startling the sleeping fellow so he would jump or maybe scream while it was being recorded. Since I was in a cheeky mood, I agreed to shout with him.
On 3, we shouted together. But the guy was a fat disappointment. He did wake up but there was no other reaction, Again! He just sat up and looked at us with the most blurrest expression one could ever expected.
Deed done, everyone went back to their books, an attempt to study that's laced with moments of smiles and giggles as they recalled that moment.
A light moment in times of examinations and deadlines. But, darn, I sure wished he had done something dramatic. Maybe someone else will fall asleep tomorrow. I wonder who....
Posted by Berenice at 8:26 PM
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Flights of Fancy 2 - Passion
With 15 minutes to spare, I've decided to show the world how naive I am capable of when it comes to certain things in life. I know I'm digging my own grave here but that's the least of my concerns. Gotta get these rantings out of my system before I break down due to the lack of space in my limited brain compartment.
Lately, I've come to the conclusion that I'm a big time wimp. Ass wipe. Ok, that's degrading. I'll change that to "useless lump of sugar". Yeah, definitely sounds better. Erm..I've realised that I was never deeply involved in anything. Never truly liked anything. Never truly wanted anything. Never truly fought for anything. I'm a living, breathing monster of nothingness.
People with passion is a beautiful piece of artwork. They have their dreams. They are very driven. Why? Because of passion. They are passionate about certain things and therefore these things matter to them. And because it matters, they think and believe that it's worth striving for. It's worth spending hours and hours of their days working on it, reaching their goal. Not to mention the sacrifices they are willing to give, the costs being the least of their concerns. Oh man, I salute these people.
But then again, i don't intend to kiss ass or to be someone i don't want to be. But that's beside the point. The point i'm trying to point out is that I need to truly seek for myself once again. I thought i was done but I'm wrong. People grow everyday hence soul searching is just like a anti-virus database. It needs to be updated all the time.
Ladida. I'm dull. Who am i to say this? I have every right. I've never truly pursued anything before. And as for my position as a singleton in an urban jungle, I realised i'm a wuss. It's always been excuses when it comes to relationships. No, I'm having my exam. No, I don't think I'm ready. No this. No that. It's pathetic. I'm a wuss. One day, I'm gonna take that big, big step towards the biggest cliche in the whole universe, Love. Reason is simple. It's high time for this idiot here to experience it. Shame on me for never ever truly liking anyone. I mean i do get to that stage, but the passion..where is it? I so lack it. Shame on me for not having to love someone with the whole of my heart. They say once bitten, twice shy. That doesn't even apply to me. I'd keep thinking that if one day, someone would say to me, "Don't be afraid. I'm gonna go with you in this all the way. Step by step" I would most certainly feel more confident.
But that would be less meaningful, wouldn't it? Things like that needs to come from within one's self. Then only can you be proud of yourself. To be able to savor what you've strove for.
Passion comes from the heart. I need to have a heart. Maybe all i need is a key...
Posted by Berenice at 4:40 AM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
finals
Alritey people. Finals are coming. In, uuhh, another 2 weeks.
Yeah, 15 more days to go and you know what? I'm still too blurred, too stoned and too damn unfocussed to start studying. I am my own worst enemy.
*Aims shotgun at self*
Never have i once panicked about exams. I mean, sure, if i have the I.Q. of a genius, that's no big deal. Bring it on, i'll say. But here's the problem: I am not! I hold the world record of being blur and clumsy. I think carrots are fruits and watermelons, a type of vegetable. Most probably belonging to the potato family since it's so big and round. Heck, there are days I don't remember the day and date of that particular day. Sometimes Fridays and Saturdays are one long Sunday to me. And Sunday is the second Sunday of the week.
And oh, time...what the hell is time? So the pointy things keep ticking and moving but what does that mean?
Oh oh oh...Sweet mothergoose, i want a rubber ducky to keep me company.